when's this whole
'these are the best days of our lives'
thing gonna kick in?

there's only memories left
of you etched in my mind

How can that one person that once made you feel amazing suddenly make you feel the worst you've ever felt?

there are some places that will always hold a
significant meaning for me,  & isn't it funny
how all those places remind me of you.

i want to burn the letters that i wrote you.
over the phone today i could feel you fading.
you're losing interest and ready to leave.
and i'm here pretending you were sent to save me.

There's always gonna be that one guy
that no matter what happens between you
two, no matter how long you go without
talking, you never stop loving him

Did you know that you're the boy
that made me hate blue eyes?

Before I go to bed
I turn on my radio and
listen to a song that
reminds me of you

the radio station plays the same song
over and over and over
the words are engraved inside my head
"nothing can compare to first true loves"

I know I broke your heart
you should know I didn't mean to.
I know you dont believe my reasons
You should know I still care.
I know you've moved on.
You should know that it kills me every day.
I know I made a mistake
I know I deserve seeing her with you,
and you damn well know it too

She lives for the day
she’ll see “iloveyou”
in his profile

why can't i do this?
why do i keep waiting for you?
after all, i know you’re not coming back

you dont know how much it hurts
when he finally tells you who he likes
& its not your name.

"When you lose a part of yourself to somebody you know, it takes a lot to let go. Every breath that you remember, pictures fade away, but memory is forever."

"And now I have to stop. Because every time I remember this, I have to cry a little by myself. I don't know why something that made me so happy then feels so sad now. Maybe that is the way it is with the best memories."

It’s really time for me to move away from him… from all this. I don’t even know who he is anymore

Remember yesterday - walking hand in hand
Love letters in the sand - I remember you
Through the sleepless nights and every endless day
I'd wanna hear you say - I remember you

If you could go anywhere right now
Where would you go ...
Would you miss me when you got there ?

Loving someone who doesnt love you back makes you wonder whats wrong with you.. some people will never understand how hard it is to just let go.

. i`d trade all of my tomorrows for one yesterday with you

it hurts to look back on everything now that your gone.
Nothing could be more empty.
my life is shattered before my eyes
nothing seems to be right anymore
and i just want it to be like before.

It's easy to convince yourself that you aren't in love with someone ...   until you see them in the hallway, or smell someone wearing their cologne. Then you're like, here we go again.  My conclusion is this: you don't ever stop loving someone. It's more a matter of learning to deal with the pain of not having them anymore.

I keep going right back to the one thing
That I need to walk away from

I'll wait until tomorrow
Maybe you'll feel better then..
Maybe we'll be better then
So what's another day?
when I can't bear these nights of thoughts of
going          on          without            you
This mood of yours is temporary
It seems worth the wait to see you smile again

Someday i won't be lost
someday i won't miss you
someday i'll understand
but for now you're taking all of me

I'm not lying when i say i miss you all the time
it's completely true, i can't live without you

ive got to admit, i miss writing your name in my diary...

I Saw Him Today
His bright eyes that used to pierce right through me
Skimming over a magazine
For a split second I remembered what we used to have,
and how different our lives are now
But I realized after that thought,
I felt nothing
except tears swelling up in my eyes
Now, boy, those weren't tears from missing you
Don't even think that they were
They were tears of joy
Because I now know I can move on with my life
And that I'm not going to cry myself to sleep every night
Wishing You Were Still Here.
&&For the first time in a long time,
I Just Know Everything Is Going To Be Alright

the scariest thing about memories,
is thinking your going to forget them

i heard our song today
not exactly our song
its the song that i hear
and i think of you

with every goodbye,
you break my heart and i'm left
waiting for the next hello.
so you can put it back together

Every time that I finally convince myself that I'm okay, that yes I can do this -- you know, live without you and actually be happy, you show up and remind that I'm not. It's like laughing in my face

You're the reason im here with this shot glass, and you're the reason im just about ready to drive myself home

so this how it’s going to be from now on?
ignoring each other in the halls,
pretending the other doesn’t exist
but secretly knowing we were meant to be.

one day, your name just
didn't make me smile

forget how he called you beautiful
forget how he gave you
the butterflies every time you saw him
forget your first kiss
forget how everyone talked
about how cute you two were together
forget talking to him on the phone until 2am
forget everything you loved about him
remember how he broke your heart.

it's been too long, & i say i'm over you.
we both know it's a lie. you love me too.
& we'll keep running back
to each other.
we're known as bad habits, not easy to b r e a k

well i just saw him with her
so hand me a beer
i don't want to remember tonight

I need you like you need her

And I kissed him. It was quick, just a goodbye kiss. One of those I love you, I'll see you tomorrow ones. But I hadn't known then, that that kiss was the last time I would ever kiss him. If I had known, I probably would've made it last forever. And then I realized that that was probably why we didn't know. We just didn't know.

the past is just what it is, history.
&& yes, lies were told and hearts were broken.
but we cared about each other back then, && we still do.
&& that is why i do not have a problem w/calling you
in the middle of the night, crying my eyes out about the
JERK THAT BROKE MY HEART

Am I in too deep?
Have I lost my mind?
I don't care...
You're here tonight.

Just because you love someone with all your heart, doesn't mean they will love you back. And I hate the fact, that I learned that from you

i just want her out of the picture,
so that it could be just you and me, finally.
but in real life, its not easy as taking scissors
to that photograph and cutting her out.

i picked up the shattered pieces of my heart,
and when i try to put them back together,
i ended up spelling your name

some people never get over their
first loves. they spend their whole
lives trying to recapture the thrill

I passed him over the next couple of years,
we'd smile and wave. But I didn't feel a thing
for him, and there was no difficult period of
forgetting him or getting over him. Which
made me wonder if I had ever loved him.

Fuck you and your untouchable face
And fuck you for existing in the first place.
[Ani Difranco]

and its those past midnight conversations
that still mean everything to me

i hate how we never got our chance
to see what we could have been.
I hate how I know I’m not over you.
And how I pretend to be.
I hate how you have moved on.
And you have no idea that I haven’t

it wouldn’t have killed him to say hi, but it fucking killed me that he didn’t

lets kiss one more time
& act like this means something
you'll say you love me
i'll swear i love you more
but youre just another boy
& i'm just another whore

i remember that goodbye like it was yesterday--
the last hug i gave him,
when he told me that i'm good enough for any boy
&& that i shouldn't give up on love

When we meet again,
we'll have one of those fake conversations,
mention the weather, have a coke.
because thats what people do,
when they grow apart

oh yea, i'm over him.
he was my first love.
he was my life.
he was my best friend.
of course i'm over him.
really...i am

I am sorry for calling so late.
but here's the thing, i miss you.
Plain and simple. && i wanna
hear that you miss me too.
i don't care if you lie.

She has a picture, from a long time ago.
they're both laughing. laughing in love.
now they just pretend everythings fine.
but she knows,
she's losing him

hey soul mate.
want to give this another go?
please, for me, i need this.
almost as much as i need your smile
aimed at me one more time

Everynight I hold this notebook to my chest & close my eyes.
I try & think of all the love that exsited between us
so I can write one of them cute love quotes.
But all I think of is how bad you hurt me
& how hard it is to let go..

I fell for you that summer,
I don’t know if it was just the way that season makes me feel free or something else.
But I have never felt about any guy the way I felt about you then.
I’m still not over you, I might never be.
I know what I was too you,
I was a story that you could run home and tell all your friends about “that girl you met that summer”
and once the conversation dropped, you would move on.
For me, it was more than that. It’s simple; I want you, all of you,
and I don’t want to be just another summer girl too you

& I miss your hugs, how you held
me tight when I was scared, I miss
how you wiped away all of my tears

Before I go to bed, I turn on my radio & listen
to a song that reminds me of you. I feel like I lost
everything when you’re gone. Left remembering of
what it’s like to have you here with me. I thought you
should know. You’re not making this easy..

let go of what kills you
& hold on to what
keeps your breathing

I bet you didn't know that I am
terrified of the dark, & everytime I
think of you, I smile. I bet you don't know
that I hate thunderstorms, but love dancing
in the rain. or how much I laugh with
my friends & how much I truly enjoy
being happy. I bet you don't know how many
tears I've cried just for you, or how
much I doubt myself every day. I bet
you don't know how ticklish I am or how I
can't make decisions & how it drives me crazy
when you look into my eyes. I bet you didn't
know that I would do anything to be with you.
but mostly I bet you didn't know
how much I love you.

somewhere between summer ending
& winter's on it's way.
somewhere between fights & kisses,
he decided she didn't matter anyways.
somewhere between school starting
& him moving on,
she missed him & begged him to come back.
somewhere between the silences
& i hate yous,
they stopped talking

we used to be so close,
but now we can be standing right beside each other
& it feels like we're a million miles apart

just because i'm not speaking to you
doesn't mean i don't miss you

i'm scared, completely terrified actually.
scared of what will happen if i see you again.
& scared of what will happen if i don't see you again

just because we aren't together
doesn't mean we can't remember

i saw you today,
but i immediately turned my head & walked away.
i knew that if our eyes just happened to meet,
that's all it would have taken to bring me to tears

i didn't know how i could wake up one morning
& have it all hit me.
i didn't know how i could miss you this much.

i know it seems like a million years ago since we dated,
but it wasn't.
maybe you're over it.
maybe it doesn't mean anything to you anymore.
maybe it never did,
but it meant a lot to me.
& you meant a lot to me.
& you still do.

& i can't lie .. i'm missing you.

 No, not 'baby' anymore.
If I need you I'll just use your simple name.
Only kisses on the cheek from now on
& in a little while we'll only have to wave

Faded pictures of the life that I once loved;
with the flash, the moment's gone.
I gave up all I had for something that never
brought me any comfort

Things won't be the same;
you're gone and only memories remain;
I'm not ready for this change.

I look at all the pictures we took,
the ones I put in this book.
All the memories run through my head,
here I sit crying on my bed

that's the thing about letting old lovers go.
you don't stop loving some of them. there are a couple
you love no less than you ever did. not to mention
names.. but I'm still in love with a couple.
you're not going to try and make it work again,
but if they needed you, you'd drop everything

I don't want things to be like this anymore,
I want to talk to you, and I want to be with you.
But it seems like every time we're close,
something happens and we're right back to fighting.
And the truth is, I hate not talking to you.

i wish I could bubble wrap my heart,
incase I fall and break apart.

There are going to be times in your life when all you wanna do is lay down in the middle of the road during rush hour. Just know that no matter how many times you feel like laying there, I will always be there to block traffic.

the more you try & forget someone,
the more you remember them

Why do we cry over these stupid boys?
honestly I don’t get it. They aren’t worth it, at all. So why? Why waste our precious tears on them? There not sitting home waiting for us to call. There not crying when we break up with them. So why don’t we just not cry at all. <3

burning pictures turn to ash, speed this up so we can crash.
teenage romance will never last; oh heartbreaker, kill me fast.

what hurts more is that i would still die for you.

it's not you i miss...
it's the way you held me and kissed me and told me i was beautiful.
the way we sang in my car, your crooked smile.
your shaggy hair in the way of your eyes,
cuddling in your bed, i could have done that til the end of time.
i miss watching you play guitar with that look on your face,
the danger of sneaking out at night and driving all over the place.
sitting at the beach till the early morning,
knowing i had somebody to call my own.
i miss seeing you sign on and being so excited when you said hi.
i miss the sadness in our faces when we had to say goodbye.
i miss talking to you, even if all you did was lie.
i guess i miss the torture of being in love with such an untouchable, unreachable guy.

and if you're ever heartbroken,
and you just want to forget about everything.
Go to the beach.
Write everything down in the sand.
Then, once it's all written down, sit in front of it.
Just sit and listen to the waves.
Just sit and wait for the waves to take away the letters.
It's erased in time, you see.
And you never have to think about it again

Why do you smell like that? And walk like that? And look at me like that? Is it because you know I find you so damn irresistible? Because you know whenever you get this close to me I want to grab you and never let go? Or maybe because you know whenever I see you my breath leaves my body completely and I feel as if all the blood has gone out of my system? Do you know what you're doing to me? 'Cause you do it very well.

i guess i'm kind of sort of wishing that you werent a part of my past

give me five more minutes please
i swear i can make you love me

but when you're gone
who will tell me i'm beautiful

Do you have any idea the pain I go through every day?
I see you holding hands with her, kissing her, making her smile.
It just sucks because I want you in a way that you don't want me

I still remember how you looked that afternoon. There was only you.

But coming back to this place, I realize it's not him that I miss. It's that young girl, wide-eyed, first love, one time innocence

& baby, i could dress up,
and put tons of make up on;
just for you,
& you wouldn't even notice

before love, my heart was a black hole.
after love, i didn't have a heart.
i'm not really sure which is better

i'll miss your lips & everything attached to them

they're the perfect couple.
he lies & she believes

so hold me close but don't get too comfortable.
cause this might be the last time you hear my
voice. well this is goodbye? or is it goodnight?
i'll promise to call if you promise not to cry

i miss the way you sing so low so i can't
hear your voice over the radio in my car,
but you knew every word you sang. you
know just the right thing to say when the
distance rips us farther and farther away.
i'll see you soon.